Hi guys,
Sorry for being less active on this blog.
Firstly I would like to let you know that I realise that most of you might have not even cared but this post is something I really need, I don't know how to explain it though. The thing is lately I have been busy with few toooooo many things. Some of them have brought happiness and some just a lot of hard work. I realised that when it comes to taking control of your life I am pretty good, its actually one of my strengths. I can wake up one day and just decide to stop one of my bad habit and that's all I need to do; no am serious, like on 8th of March I told myself that I will stop biting my nails from now on and I just did. 22 years of nail biting and I was able to quit it in just one day, but how?
This question is whats bothering me as I really didn't tried quitting this nail biting habit because I wanted to quit it, but instead I did it because I wanted to see how dedicated and focused I can be on something that can't be labelled work. Last year a similar thing happened.
Since I have been overweight (8 yrs to be precise), I always thought that by the time I am 22 I will get in shape. No idea why I choose 22 but I just did.
So, when I woke up on 5th January, 2011; I decided to start working out. I just told to myself that I will check some YouTube videos read books and start my exercise routines from 6th January till 6th June, a period of 6 months, enough to see some results. My decision to start was it, I mean I didn't questioned it, I didn't even thought if I could do it or not. I just read hundreds of articles from exercise cycles, myths, tips, tricks, genes, body types, blah blah blah... and as soon as I was done with the reading I went to the nearest sports shop and bought some dumbbells, barbells and a mat. From that day till my birthday (6th June) I never missed a day (except for the weekly off, Sunday). Even though I only lost 6 Kg of weight in all I had actually lost a lot of fat and gained a lot of muscles, but still the visible difference on my body wasn't great, I felt health, I went from being able to do just 1 to 60 push-ups in one go. But then I stopped, coz I was 22. I know it sounds stupid,but I did. Why did I just stopped so suddenly? What made me kept going the entire 6 months?
Now I decided to compare both these incidents. Both started superbly and were followed with the same amount of dedication but then what happened why did I stopped my exercises. Even though I had completed my 6 months and turned 22, my physical state was no where as healthy as I wanted or was it just because I had only planned to workout till 6th June. But how suddenly the dedication and motivation can be gone like this. Can we really control these feelings, did I unknowingly set my brain to be motivated and dedicated for that much amount of time. Or was it just the results that kept me going. Maybe as I was not happy with my result after 6 months of exercise I decided to leave it, whereas the nails took like 2 weeks to grown to a sufficient length for me to use a nail-cutter, for the very first time in my life.
So this actually made me more curious about how I could use these controlled burst of dedication to improve my productivity, or if it was just the visible results then maybe I should divide big goals into smaller tasks and try to just focus on finishing them. I haven't figured out what made me so focused during these incidents and thats what I have been trying to find out. I have been reading many productivity books and even trying out some routines, change of habits and small tweaks to my mourning rituals. I don't care how long it takes I will find this out, its just too damn interesting. I am so fascinated by this that I have actually no idea what I have written in this entire post, this might be the first post that I will have to proof read....
Sorry for being less active on this blog.
Firstly I would like to let you know that I realise that most of you might have not even cared but this post is something I really need, I don't know how to explain it though. The thing is lately I have been busy with few toooooo many things. Some of them have brought happiness and some just a lot of hard work. I realised that when it comes to taking control of your life I am pretty good, its actually one of my strengths. I can wake up one day and just decide to stop one of my bad habit and that's all I need to do; no am serious, like on 8th of March I told myself that I will stop biting my nails from now on and I just did. 22 years of nail biting and I was able to quit it in just one day, but how?
This question is whats bothering me as I really didn't tried quitting this nail biting habit because I wanted to quit it, but instead I did it because I wanted to see how dedicated and focused I can be on something that can't be labelled work. Last year a similar thing happened.
Since I have been overweight (8 yrs to be precise), I always thought that by the time I am 22 I will get in shape. No idea why I choose 22 but I just did.
So, when I woke up on 5th January, 2011; I decided to start working out. I just told to myself that I will check some YouTube videos read books and start my exercise routines from 6th January till 6th June, a period of 6 months, enough to see some results. My decision to start was it, I mean I didn't questioned it, I didn't even thought if I could do it or not. I just read hundreds of articles from exercise cycles, myths, tips, tricks, genes, body types, blah blah blah... and as soon as I was done with the reading I went to the nearest sports shop and bought some dumbbells, barbells and a mat. From that day till my birthday (6th June) I never missed a day (except for the weekly off, Sunday). Even though I only lost 6 Kg of weight in all I had actually lost a lot of fat and gained a lot of muscles, but still the visible difference on my body wasn't great, I felt health, I went from being able to do just 1 to 60 push-ups in one go. But then I stopped, coz I was 22. I know it sounds stupid,but I did. Why did I just stopped so suddenly? What made me kept going the entire 6 months?
Now I decided to compare both these incidents. Both started superbly and were followed with the same amount of dedication but then what happened why did I stopped my exercises. Even though I had completed my 6 months and turned 22, my physical state was no where as healthy as I wanted or was it just because I had only planned to workout till 6th June. But how suddenly the dedication and motivation can be gone like this. Can we really control these feelings, did I unknowingly set my brain to be motivated and dedicated for that much amount of time. Or was it just the results that kept me going. Maybe as I was not happy with my result after 6 months of exercise I decided to leave it, whereas the nails took like 2 weeks to grown to a sufficient length for me to use a nail-cutter, for the very first time in my life.
So this actually made me more curious about how I could use these controlled burst of dedication to improve my productivity, or if it was just the visible results then maybe I should divide big goals into smaller tasks and try to just focus on finishing them. I haven't figured out what made me so focused during these incidents and thats what I have been trying to find out. I have been reading many productivity books and even trying out some routines, change of habits and small tweaks to my mourning rituals. I don't care how long it takes I will find this out, its just too damn interesting. I am so fascinated by this that I have actually no idea what I have written in this entire post, this might be the first post that I will have to proof read....
